Date : Friday, July 24, 2009
Time : 10:15 PM
Title : Desperado

4 more days to 18th and I don't like it.

So many things weighing on my mind and I can't say it out.

So what.

Nobody cares anyway.

That's how you spent 18 years of your life. Or should it be wasted 18 years...

I don't know I don't care.

If that's how I'm going to spend my 18th birthday, so be it.

If that's how I'm going to spend the rest of my birthdays, so be it.

Who am I to blame? Part of it is your fault and you don't want to admit it. Instead pushing the blame to me, saying I didn't try. Fine, just fine. I don't care what you say, the most I'll end up like my dad. Why must you compare me with you. I'm not as outgoing as you, not as carefree as you. Society is different now please. I don't go drinking since young right, because you guys didn't allow. But you did. You didn't need to study everyday but I have to. I admit I didn't put in effort to maintain the relationships but so? Do you think I have so much time in my hands to go around making cards and buying presents? And were they really worth maintaining in the first place? Well for sure, some ain't.

Desperado, why dont you come to your senses?
You been out riding fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasing you
Can hurt you somehow
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, you aint' gettin no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're driving you home
And freedom, oh freedom well,
thats just some people talking
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Dont your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
Its hard to tell the night time from the day

You're loosin all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

I don't know why but the later never came.......